Many people have asked, “How has your 2017 been?” And every time I give a version of 2017 that has been well and truly a year that feels like more than a year. So so much has transpired in this one year that it definitely feels like I’ve lived more than 365 days.
There were the lows, the in-betweens and the highs.
From beginning the year as a connect leader, to seeing it multiply and stepping up as regional leader. Seeing connect members stepping up to lead as we exploded out into Sound Connects. Growing on the Prayer team. Experiencing what Street Evangelism is. Celebrating the wins of the connect members, from job provisions to healings. The encounters at Global Gathering and Convergence. Getting baptised with my mum.
Like anyone else, I faced disappointments and frustration. Lost loved ones or feared losing them. Struggled with bouts of fear and inadequacies. I read some scribbles I wrote down at the start of the year and it was all about finding my identity again in Him and being His child again. To know the Father all over again.
If you asked me once again what this year was like for me, I would say it was a year of going deeper. Not a plunging in, but a wading into.
A constant, steady rhythm of pushing against the resistance of the deep waters as I reach into all that the Father calls me into. Like a dad waiting in the middle of the pool, He calls me in to reach further, to push ahead. Just that little more, just that little bit further in.
And every reaching out requires a stretch, a tad bit uncomfortable but never too far out of reach. With every inch, He says “You’re so amazing, child.” and He celebrates unreservedly.
There were times I lost sight of Him, and all I could see was how in over my head and how far from shore I was. But He sent lifeguards like the Kingdomcity family to help keep my head above water and to carry me forward until I once again found my strength in Him.
Without God and the people who have chosen to stand by me, there is no way I could be standing where I am today.
When we spoke about the theme for 2017 at Kingdomcity being Deeper, I had some vague concept of what that would look like. But I could not have painted the beautiful picture that God had designed for me.
What a privilege. To have amazing lovely people whose journeys intertwined with mine. To have had the opportunity to have God use me to sow into and touch lives. To have had the honour of others impacting and sowing into my life. To each and every one of YOU, thank you!
Now 2018 is waiting and I have no clue as to where it will take me. If it is to be, it will be.
But I know what I know… that He is Immanuel, God with us. He has been so so faithful to me.
Father, help me dare to dream, dare to ask, dare to reach.
12-14 I’m not saying that I have this all together, that I have it made. But I am well on my way, reaching out for Christ, who has so wondrously reached out for me. Friends, don’t get me wrong: By no means do I count myself an expert in all of this, but I’ve got my eye on the goal, where God is beckoning us onward—to Jesus. I’m off and running, and I’m not turning back.
15-16 So let’s keep focused on that goal, those of us who want everything God has for us. If any of you have something else in mind, something less than total commitment, God will clear your blurred vision—you’ll see it yet! Now that we’re on the right track, let’s stay on it.
(Philippians 3:12-16 MSG)